Can't seem to get to sleep.Partly due to the fact that I slept at 3am yesterday and woke up at 12 something. I should really try to turn in early. My body clock have been disrupted over the past few weeks.Initially I was sleeping at 10pm every night and waking up at 6am,however over the past month,I have been sleeping only at 2am and waking up at 10am.If this were to persist,then the consequences will be ghastly when I start school in February.

I have a really bad habit of being fickle minded.I am never persistant,and never really have the will to do something for long.In primary school,I joined numerous CCAs but never longer than a year.In secondary school,I may have remained in my CCA for 3 years,but the passion in me for my CCA had long diminished,long before the 3 years.More recently,I spent $600 on some gaming stuff-come to think about it,that is 80% of my salary.I happily gave the guy 12 pieces of $50 notes,in great ebullience.
Yet less than a week later,I started regretting my foolish act.I realized that what I did on impulse would keep me mulling over it for more than 3 months.$600 sgd gone with the wind!How many things could I have bought with the $600!...Thus I had to resort to selling them away... What a waste of time and money.Really hope that this experience will deter me from repeating my mistake again.Which i seriously doubt so...

Hopefully with the money I earn from selling those stuffs,I will be able to break even.Since terms reopens only in February,I have decided to change my plans.Instead of the intended 1 month gaming in January,I have decided to stay at my grandma's place. I intend to rest well and relax,going out with her,like I did when I was younger,visiting the market and stuffs like that.It has been a long time since I really spent quality time with her.Furthermore,It isn't often that I get to complete major exams and have the benefit of not having to touch any work.Spending time with my grandma definitely beats spending time in front of a computer.Moreover I had better use my remaining holiday to the fullest,before I regret it like on all previous occasions.

It is really ironic.While I was busy preparing for my O levels 3 months ago,I could not wait to go to work.Yet while I was working,I could not resist the urge to quit working and yearned to return to schooling life.Yet after I resigned from work,I started having an odd feeling within me,nudging me to go back to work.Or maybe a tinge of regret for sending in my resignation so early.Well maybe that's human nature to begin with-like the maxim suggest "the grass is always greener on the other side".
Well now I finally understand.

Spent the whole afternoon cleaning up my room.It has been ages since I last dusted my room.The cupboards are(no is were)were like covered with a layer of dust and oil.Eeee..Had a hard time cleaning them off.Threw away many miscellanous stuffs.Felt so happy when clearing all the worksheets and books.I always like to clear worksheets and books at the end of the year.Sense of satisfaction :>

Anyway will be going to my grandma's house tomorrow till who knows when.Result will be out real soon,somewhere in mid Jan.Seems like yesterday when I took my chem paper.Argh damn nervous,really afraid that I will do badly..Let me remain ignorant and blissful for the remaining days before judgement day.

Christmas is over' New Year is next and 2009 will be ushered in' Chinese new year will come after that' and term reopens.

Till then it is goodbye
cyaz