ƸӜƷ Beautiful Lies.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Sitting by my window, the occasional cool wind blows.

The view is picturesque. The sky and sea, blue in unison.

Gentle waves ripple.

The calm surface belies the otherwise dark merciless depth.

The deep blue sea, watch how slowly it turns black.

The waves grow weak, as though weary after a long day's work.

The clouds waft gracefully up above.

Watch them turn their back, how slowly, slowly;

they disappear into the night sky.

Overwhelming darkness ensues, disrupted only,

by the shimmering lights dottering the urban landscape not too far

away.

I am all alone.

Today is a special day. It is a day, which marks the

beginning of the end. Ironic as it may sound, it is true. Today is the

start of Situational Test Day, SIT test for short. SIT Test is the

last of the three high key events of my 9 week long BMT journey.

Many things are going through me right now, things I wish to

dismiss, things I wish to forget, things I do not wish to carry with me

into the next day. With the completion of SIT Test, all that is left

would be the physically demanding route marches, and before long, I

will be out of this inhospitable island.

Only a few more book outs left before the Graduation Parade on the

3rd July. Uncertain if I would be participating in it. Would very

much like to be a part of the three thousand strong contingent. Fate

decreed; I accept.

God, give me the grace to accept with serenity the things I cannot

change; the courage to change the things I can change; and the

wisdom to distinguish one from the other

- Reinhold Niebuhr.

It was never easy, it isn't easy, it will never be easy.

8:30 PM