Monday, November 21, 2011
Been quite a while since I last updated this blog. Circumstance had
been such that the month of November was anything but a smooth
traverse. Had it been otherwise, I would have had numerous more
opportunities to pen down my two cents worth. Not that it came as
a surprise really, the heightened apprehension were already there to
begin with.
November, an eventful one. Crafting up a plan, the plan so
immaculate, it could not go wrong. Thereafter executing it; the
painstaking efforts undertaken, the tedious and at times
intimidating advances made- the slightest of miscalculations could
prove to be my undoing. Left alone to fend against the most
disparaging remarks, the sting was verging on the unbearable. No
doubt this episode is over, the fiasco unfortunately is far from
settled. The arrangements aren't finalized, leaving me in a limbo for
the past 3 weeks. The situation is still precarious, and any caution
thrown into the wind may very well vain up my efforts over the past
month.
The aura of discontent and animosity is growing. Largely unspoken,
its presence so uncannily felt; the environment is growing
increasingly intolerable and I too am becoming melancholic. The
entangled mess I have gotten myself into, I am now fighting to
break free from its menacing grip. Pinning great hopes that the
transition period will eventually pass, and counting the days, seems
like the only solution to lessen the anguish of the ordeal.
A 5 days respite from work, the best remedy to relief me of my
current demise. This 5 days also provided me with a wonderful
opportunity to try out the newly unearthed information that could
potentially transform my life.
That said, December should prove to be a month of much unfolding.
In heroic fashion, may my plan work out well. The bitter hunger
eating into me, obfuscating my thoughts.
Living of my new found belief, I will not capitulate this time.
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Foolish men mistake transitory semblance for eternal fact.
Thomas Carlyle
4:00 PM
