Sunday, May 5, 2013
It was exactly 2 years ago that I enlisted for army.
2 More months to the end of work commitment.
Almost 3 months into this withdrawal.
Slightly over 3 months to start of University.
It is strange how laughter looks like crying without sound and how raindrops look like tears without pain.
Its two steps forward and one step back.
In the midst of flare #7 - a very stubborn one. Hope I get over it soon. In need of some respite. Hope to be better in 3 months.
With lots of fucks and fucking hell.
#Tired
Thought it would be wise to add another bag onto my already loaded baggage - my choice really. Just wonder how am I going to get through this period with all these crap.
I must not fear. Fear is the mind killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the mind's eye to see its passage. There will be nothing. Only I will remain.
- Bene Gesserit Litany Against the Fear, The Dune Series by Frank Herbert.
The flames are ebbing away. I've got to muster one last effort to keep the faith.
11:19 PM
