It's the 22nd, and it's been four months. Though it seriously feels much longer than that. I feel pretty much mired in a state of stagnation. Better days are short lived and they are often interrupted by long periods of 'flares' - though not as bad as the very first month - they still irritate me to no bounds. 'Good' days are almost non-existent since flare number 7 started in early May. May and June were pretty bad months by my standard. If the skin consists of seven layers, then may my body be doing its restoration works on the fourth layer by now, at least - I hope. Whatever, I cringe to think of going to school in a worst-than-current state. As the days blur by, months go by, doubts begin to form on my mind. It is almost unthinkable to imagine myself completely healed with genuinely normalize skin. Fellow sufferers all swear that their skin totally recovers after this harrowing process. But four months into this journey, I feel drained of energy and confidence. I am less optimistic than when I first started out. School is starting in around 6 weeks, not to mention the number of activities in July that will keep me busy much. With the worsening haze, I am lethargic and listless everyday. My skin better not get worst during this period of haze. I signed the MOE contract a few hours ago. I am now officially bonded.
