A lull period in life
Its now March 2014 - a lull period of my life. The 'lullest' - if such a word even exist - period in 21 years, just as it is the driest period in Singapore since 1869. I am not schooling. I am not working. The latter not because I am lazy, but because I am unable to - yet. I am thinking of stopping my tuition class at ASTA - the only commitment I have. A burdensome and onerous one. I am just not cut out to teach English. It's like 'forcing a square peg into a circular hole'. It does not make sense. It does not make me happy. Thus it should cease. Having to teach a class of adult foreigners adds a whole lot more complication to the equation and I am having all sorts of difficulties trying to solve this equation, week in week out. I am sick of the dread - the dread of Monday. The dread of having to prepare for lesson. The dread of having to even enter the classroom. I am seeking greener pastures somewhere, anywhere - where I will be better off. Maybe not, I will probably be rotting at home for the next 4.5 months until school starts in August.
This is so unlike me. 2012 was by far my most productive year. I managed to downgrade my Pes status, gave obscene amount of tuition and consequently went to Japan with my buddies - at the same time chalking off a year of NS liabilities. What a year! Fast forward 2 years, and the stark contrast in my life becomes so conspicuous. The lack of activities has coerced me into doing 'weird' stuffs I otherwise would not engage in.
Ever since that Cruise trip, I have been fascinated by Baccarat. The infatuation was bordering on obsession until I lost almost a thousand dollars playing online. I think I now know why gambling is such a big deal. It kills by not killing you. I have got to nip this newly found penchant for gambling in the bud. January and February started off really well. I was well on course with my revision schedule. Then came March - a disaster. I am just relief that my first foray into gambling was not a fruitful one. It would probably turn out to be a pyrrhic victory of sorts had I rode on my 'beginners luck' as I would definitely lose more in the long run. I was curious, I paid the price. I hope I learnt my lesson.
It has been slightly over a year since I ORD. No news from the SAF. I probably am a forgotten man - how good is it to be free. So much has happened since I ORD. This lull is probably needed.