Seriously? School is officially starting in 1 month, 2 weeks and 3 days. This day I so eagerly was looking forward to last year. This day I have been waiting zealously for. This day I believed was the beginning of a new life - a normal life. One year on, I am dreading this very day. My skin is still no where near where I thought it would be. Functional but not comfortable at all. My skin should be working hard on restoring things to the way they should be. But on the surface, not much is happening. I am stagnating through cycles of ups and downs. I can't stress how confident I was - a year ago - that I would be done, healed on my first day of school. My undergraduate life would be THE life I had in mind. I would study harder than ever before, and play hard. I would join CCAs I was passionate in, make new friends, stay healthy and study hard. Come the holidays, and I will be on the plane, en route to some Mountain. Or I could be swimming in crystal clear waters off some Malaysian Island, observing Saturn on a telescope million of miles away. Paragliding, parachuting, skydiving and the likes. My idea of a life. In reality, my skin is dry, wrinkled, hyperpigmented and itchy. Definitely not the ideal conditions to start my undergraduate studies. I have obligatory events to attend in July - seriously? - and find myself in the same dilemma one year later. I am now figuring out how to make myself as invisible as possible in my first semester. This drawn out battle with TSW is disparaging me so much - I am forgetting what normalcy is. One more year maybe?
