Sometimes in life. You don't get what you want. The life I envisaged 4 years ago in 2019 isn't what it is today. The life I envisaged 1 year ago, isn't what it is today. At the present moment, I have an abundance of time and money, but not the health to spend them. There are so many things I would love to do, but I can't do them. It has been a frustrating year, really. 2022 hasn't been easy, and I truly hope that the worst is over, that the bottom is in, and that is is upward from here on. So many things are outside of my control, and it is difficult to acknowledge that. It is difficult to acknowledge that sometimes trying one's best is not sufficient. Sometimes, a phase of life is there to be traversed. We just have to go through it - no shortcuts. I really hope that we will be in a much much much better place in a year's time. If time will do its job, then that fact is in itself a beacon of great hope, one that I will fervently hold on to. I really am not in a place where I would like to be. May this transitory period come to pass real soon. I look forward to Jan 2024 for I believe that we will be in a significantly happier place then.

Till then, stay strong and hopeful. It won't rain forever. Better days will eventually come.