The Fallen Angle

2026 will not be easy it seems. Wife is now 12 weeks pregnant. She is having really bad nausea and just fatigue in general / headache, general discomfort. My biggest frustration is happening again. Her skin is rough (Keratosis pilaris), plus she is currently taking a break from her biologics, due to her pregnancy. We are awaiting the pregnancy safe biologics to be available (NSC have to order it from overseas and it is taking forever.... She is already 1 week past her biologics injection and we have to wait another god knows how many more weeks... Imagine mine apprehension and worry about her psorasis reappearing having been very frustrated by her KP, not too mention she is so lackadaiscal about skincare that is not on her face..... Honestly, my frustration is immense. This was the biggest reason why I did not want to have a second kid.. honestly, I felt that we were getting semblance of control back to our life post Atlas, only for control to be wrestled away once again...) To be really honest, I am dreading 2026.. Wife's rough skin + worry about psorasis reappearing has significantly put a dent on my - previously uprising - life. Just 2 months ago, things were so rosy, we were in korea for our customary EOY trip, and everything (skin, time, happiness) was largely under control, only for everything to seemingly unwravel. I know I shouldn't be feeling this way, but these are my unbridled thoughts. The lack of effort on my wife to do something / put in effort for her skin, pisses me off really. Not to mention Atlas is having some dry skin and scratching here and there... All my biggest fears... 2026 hasnt been a good year thus far. May it get better. Atlas is also getting "naughtier". Terrible 2 they call it. At 29months, he is really getting grumpy and whiny. Parenthood is really not easy man. Sometimes I wonder, how will I / we cope with another baby. The sleepless nights, the 3 hr feed cycle, the burping, never ending washing of bottles.. Oh gosh.... How will I get through. For now, health (not good - skin) work is good, as I have only 3 lessons per week - all sec 4. I honoured my word from the previous post, and I did not take on sec 3 classes. I really feel that its time to draw the curtain on this chapter of teaching and start a new season of life. But yet... I am not exactly looking forward to the immediate future of sleepless nights again. Lord please give me the strength to get through this road ahead (I think it will be rough). My wife's skin is really irritating me. So does her Cavalier attitude toward her skin. Honestly, I feel like my worst fears are coming... i really hope not man.... Life in 30s (with kids), is not easy man. Sometimes I envy those childless couple. May this be a passing phase.